And things keep going wrong. I feel like crying. But then again, I feel like crying over 20% of the time. I look like I wanna cry just in 5% of those 20%. It will complete almost two months that I am on vacations. Two months of doing nothing. Two months of working in the house like I am some kind of housekeeper. Two months of not gaining a thing, but listening to a hell lot of critics. All the time. Almost all the days of those two months. Christmas has passed and so has my 16th birthday. I didn't got a present. I maybe don't gain a single present since my 13th birthday. And my 11th Christmas. But hey, I've learned to not complain. Not show how those missing presents feel so bad in me. And today isn't a good day. I've lost again. Ate some Toddy and sugar, almost throw up. I wish I'd had. I was at the airport today. I saw a girl that looked like a model. Blond, well-dressed, skinny. With a guy. That depressed me. And the fact that this one thing was enough to depress me bugs me a lot. I got depressed because I saw a girl that was looking like I'd wish I'd looked. How sad and pathetic is that? And so I went to see how much was I weighting. 72 pounds. 72. I should just kill myself because doesn't actually look like something can get better. I didn't go to the gym yesterday. And today. I have friends who traveled to Europe this vacations. I have friends who ae living in Australia. In Belgium. And I can't even get out of my house. Again, how sad and pathetic is that?
This is not so sad and patetic.It is normal.
ResponderExcluirI was feeling like you, but I believed that things
would be better, that was all I could do. Now things are less bad. So believe, better days will come. ;)